When you aren’t an athlete or an athletic person, it is sort of difficult to admit to yourself that you are an athlete when it finally happens…. This morning though, I was up at 5am to get in my 5 training miles and I thought… well it happened. I must be an athlete now.
In other news, I have decided to reclaim the word fat. There was a big to do from LC this week as she doesn’t want to use the term skinny, but apparently still wants to use phrases like bikini body, and while I promote that mindset and promote people just being healthy, whatever that means to them, let me tell you why I am ok with the term fat for my own life. Years ago, I am pretty sure I had a mild case of body dysmorphia. I mean I was overweight, but I hated my body and just didn’t want to admit it. Instead of getting healthy and loving myself or being overweight and loving myself, I would do things like go to Anna’s Taqueria and order a burrito the size of my face and a side of chips and salsa and get to the cashier and think, that cashier is looking at me like I don’t need these chips and salsa. That cashier thinks I am fat. The truth is, that cashier didn’t give a crud what I looked like or what I ate, but that’s how I felt at the time. At the time I was ashamed and the term fat would just destroy me because it felt so true. When I refer to myself or a body part of mine as fat now, it’s important to me because it’s me embracing a word and not letting that word become me or get me down. It’s me saying man, I feel fat today, and that’s ok. I am still going to eat this cupcake because I choose to.
While I would love to live in a world where I don’t use these terms at all, the truth is, I don’t live in that world. So if I am going to exist in the world I live in, I might as well be happy with me. And I am. Let’s love ourselves no matter what OK? You all look great.
Oh and ladies… we all have a bikini body. Why? Because if you have a body and you put a bikini on it, then you have a bikini body. Whoever said only skinny people could wear bikinis? Men? Other women? Screw em.